When Motherhood Feels Boring

This is the start of my newest piece for The Gospel Coalition. You can read the entire article here!

I mentally ticked down the clock until bedtime: nine hours to go. It was only 11 a.m. Already I was fighting ennui—not because I don’t love my children but because the day stretched ahead of me with the same activities I’d been doing for days before and would be doing for days afterward.

I am deeply grateful to be a mother. But if I’m honest, sometimes the work feels . . . boring.

Particularly this year, many of us have been with our children, and only our children, for most waking hours. Days and weeks stretch ahead and behind in blurry sameness. Much of our work as mothers—whether we’re at home full-time or not—requires repeated tasks. Washing bodies and clothes and dishes, preparing meals and snacks and drinks, driving the same routes to grocery stores and pharmacies and school and church, over and over again.

But in this season of mothering, I’ve taken great encouragement from the ways God’s Word helps to reframe what often feels, to me, like boredom.

Sameness ≠ Monotony

From a biblical perspective, sameness does not equal monotony. The Word declares that “Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever” (Heb. 13:8), and that every gift we have been given is from the Father “with whom there is no variation or shadow due to change” (James 1:17). God is, wonderfully, always the same. He does not change his mind about us. He is consistent in his character and unshakeable in his glory. His law remains, and his truth will endure for all time.

Read the rest of the article over at The Gospel Coalition!

 

Still Waiting by Ann Swindell

Finding Peace at Christmas

This is the start of my newest piece for Risen Motherhood. You can read the entire article here!

Christmas Peace for Moms

Too often, the Christmas season starts to feel like an overwhelming amount of work for moms. For many of us, there are decorations to put up, presents to purchase or make, school activities to help with, meals to prepare, travel arrangements to plan, and—in the midst of it all—Advent to (hopefully) attend to.

But what if instead of working to make Christmas “happen” for ourselves and our families this year—what if we played? What if we took our own kind of break and set down the culture-induced pressure to strive for a perfect Christmas? Then, we could focus on the true play of Christmastime: delighting in and celebrating the gift that has already been given to us in the form of the Christ child who came as a baby.

As mothers, we have the choice this season to take a break from the world’s expectations and focus on playing during Advent, rather than working. That’s not to say that there won’t be work involved this year—no matter the season, motherhood is full of good and holy work. But there are ways that we can attend to the season of Advent with an attitude of playfulness and rest that has the opportunity to encourage our souls.

This Christmas, let’s seek to enable our souls to benefit from play in the truest sense: the intentional enjoyment of God and his good gifts. Why? Here are three reasons…

Read the rest of the article here, at Risen Motherhood!

Still Waiting by Ann Swindell

God is Faithful, Even When Nothing Changes

In the week after my husband lost his job, I remember the feeling of desperation that crept in at night. I would lie awake in bed, wondering how we were going to make it, financially and practically.

My husband was sending out his resume and applying for positions; he was making calls and networking. But as the weeks piled up, he still had no job offers. I felt overwhelmed every time I thought about our future and how we wanted — and needed — to provide for our children. Emotions in our home ran high.

Nothing changed.

After three months of the same, I felt helpless. I tried to insist that Michael apply more places and send out more copies of his resume. But as the options for job opportunities narrowed down to almost nothing, my husband became clear in his conviction that it was time for us to wait on the Lord rather than pushing ahead with anything we could manufacture on our own.

Read the entire article here, at (in)courage!

 

How to Love a Friend Through Crisis

This is the start of my newest article for Risen Motherhood.

When my friend experienced a sudden loss, her family was plunged into crisis. Her days were lived out in a fog, and she desperately needed the help and support of the church. As one of her good friends, I was often over at her home, helping to navigate the practical and spiritual needs of their family.

Loving a Friend Through Crisis

Crisis is, by its very nature, unexpected. When someone we love loses their job overnight, suddenly finds their marriage in shambles, or receives a devastating diagnosis, their world effectively stops. As a friend, we have the powerful opportunity to “bear one another’s burdens, and so fulfill the law of Christ” (Gal. 6:2). This is the opportunity to shoulder the weight of this crisis together so that our friend does not break under the weight of it alone.

The calling to tangibly be the hands and feet of Christ to a friend in crisis is both beautiful and challenging. As mothers, our days are already filled with the stressors and responsibilities of motherhood, and it can feel overwhelming to support someone else, even if it’s a friend we dearly love. But with God’s help, we respond with wisdom and grace.

While there is no one-size-fits-all approach for loving our friends well through crisis, there are helpful ways that we, as moms, can come alongside of them and support them during one of the toughest seasons of their lives.

Read the rest of the article at Risen Motherhood!

Still Waiting by Ann Swindell

Trusting God in My Husband’s Job Loss

This is the start of my newest piece for The Gospel Coalition. You can read the full article here, at TGC!

Trusting God in Husband Job Loss www.annswindell.com

My husband’s job unexpectedly ended and, along with the sadness of disappointed hopes that his job didn’t work out, I’m struggling with fears over finances, the transition of moving (again), and the fight to stay emotionally stable for our children and each other with so much change. How can I trust the Lord through all of this? 


Our family recently went through a similar circumstance, and it felt like every security button I’d ever had was pushed: How would we pay the mortgage? Would we have to move to a new state? What would this mean for our kids? Our marriage?

As someone who craves stability, fear related to change is common for me, and the questions threatened to topple me at times. While I longed for a quick fix, it was seven months before God gave my husband a new job and set our family in a new season. And although I wouldn’t have chosen that path for our family, I am grateful for how the Lord increased my trust in him during that time.

I came out of that season knowing three things in a richer and deeper way.

1. Nothing Surprises God

The Scriptures are clear that God is sovereign. Nothing surprises him, and while we may not understand why he allows certain trials to take place in our lives, we can trust that he is not thrown off by them. The God who sees and knows the end from the beginning (Isa. 46:10Rev. 22:13) knew exactly when your husband would lose his job (Ps. 139:16). But even better is that God knows what is next for you and your family. He has a plan that will unfold in his way and his timing.

When my husband lost his ministry job, I thought that if I could just see a year into the future, I would be able to walk in peace, because I would know what was up ahead and could cling to that. But that is not how the Lord works; his mercy keeps the future shielded from our eyes. In not knowing what was ahead, I had the opportunity—and ultimately, the choice—to hang onto to God rather than to any circumstance.

That is the gift in front of you right now, hard as it is. Hold on to the Lord. You can trust that his plan for your family is being worked out with beautiful precision.

Read the entire article here, at The Gospel Coalition!

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The Lens of Love: Writing and Rewriting Our Stories

This is the start of my newest piece for Grit & Virtue. You can read the full article here–it’s one of my favorites that I’ve written!

The Lens of Love at www.annswindell.com

My husband was at home with the baby and I was at the library when I experienced my first – and only – panic attack. It was Fall; the air outside was just beginning to thin and tumble, threading its way through newly-bare branches and alleyways. I remember that it was dark, painfully dark at 6 pm. I was tired.

I sat at one of the large tables in the reference section, my notes and books spread around me in a cluttered half-circle. I work best with large amounts of space and quiet, something nearly impossible to come by with a new baby. It was a gift to slip away to the quiet of the stacks and write the book I was working on; it was something I had missed, acutely, for months.

I don’t remember feeling particularly stressed or anxious, but I do remember the pattering in my chest that started like a whisper and progressed to cymbals. I couldn’t focus and had to turn off the computer. My breathing became narrow and superficial; I felt like I was falling down even as I straightened in my chair. The room started hovering like hummingbird wings, and I had to close my eyes and lay my cheek on the cool of the table. I wondered if I was having a heart attack or a stroke and if maybe this was how I would die, here in the quiet of the library.

[Spoiler alert–I’m still here! 🙂 You can read the rest of this piece at Grit & Virtue!]

 

Still Waiting by Ann Swindell